Yes, I'm still here

So, I was informed today by a very dear friend that I'm a very bad blogger. Well, I already knew that but this one's for you, Michelle. So, anyways, since Sadie's passing I just haven't really felt like blogging much. I've been focusing on more important things. Spending more time with the girls - enjoying them, enjoying life, enjoying scrapbooking. Paying more attention to my marriage - really talking and having meaningful conversations. You lose that in the hustle of daily life. Sadie made me realize what was really important in life. That little baby girl will forever remain in my heart. I talk to Tracy at least once a week. The family is managing the best they can. I can't imagine how difficult it must be. Their main focus right now is honoring Sadie's life. They are fundraising right now to have an Angel of Hope Statue brought to Blackstone Valley. You can read more about it here:

I've ordered 3 bracelets already. One for myself, and one for each of the girls - I'll have to take a picture of them to show you - they're beautiful. It's been 4 months today that Sadie went to heaven. Not a day goes by that I don't remember her beautiful blue eyes or that sweet smile. I can't imagine anything more painful than losing a child. Keep them in your thoughts always.

As for my girls, they are growing by the minute it seems. Emma is on and off w/ school. She has her good days and her clingy, "Mommy please don't leave me" days. Geez, I wonder if she would have been better if I sent her every day instead of just 2 days. I wonder what will happen when she starts kindergarten. She's so much like me though - shy, clumsy, such a Mama's girl. She's changed a lot the past few years that I've been a stay at home Mom. She used to be Daddy's little girl. But, now that I'm here with her all day, every day - she wants Me whenever I'm not around. The little stinker even waited up until 10pm for me last night. Refused to go to bed because I wasn't here. Yup, she's a Mama's girl. She got her progress report today. A - stands for Almost Always, E for Emerging and N for Needs attention. She received mostly A's, a few E's, and one N. Remembering her phone # needs attention. Well, her full name, address and phone # is now posted in bold letters on our fridge - I figured she's bound to see it every day. Now, that teacher can't say I'm not addressing the situation, lol. We have a parent/teacher meeting next week. My first parent/teacher meeting. How cute :) Rob will be attending w/ me. This will be his first time seeing Emma's school and meeting her teacher. I think he's excited to go. I sometimes have to remind myself that this is my life now. Hard to imagine that I've grown up, and now have kids of my own. Seems like yesterday that I was in school. Funny, how time flies. And my little Miss Abby - I took her to the library today when Rob got home from work. Emma fell asleep - that's what she gets for waiting up for me last night, lol. So, Abby picked out some books and a couple movies. We brought them home and I started supper. I peeked in the living room and she was sitting at the coffee table with the library books and Emma's toy register - opening each book and scanning the inside of the covers. It cracked me up - very observant little girl. Who knows, maybe she's destined to be a librarian when she grows up. But of course, I went to fetch the camera and take a picture and she was not allowing that to happen. She was all done! Hmmm... Emma so would have posed for the camera but not Abby! Oh well, hopefully there will be a next time and I'll be a little more sneaky! Well that's about it for today. Hopefully I'll be better at updating - now that I have someone to give me a push :)